Monday, September 23, 2019

"In this world we are in precarious position, balanced midway between material and spiritual hungers." -- Harold Klemp

Peanuts and Honey

I took my lunch to the one of the local museums to eat near a fountain surrounded by the sound of water. I did not know if the water had turned the fountain's base green. The base was a pool to collect the shooting streams and keep them from coming in contact with my feet and recycle the water like a manufactured water cycle. Maybe it had been deigned that way. Designed with materials to convince someone that this cycle has continued without intervention for some time, and has occurred longer before.

I thought that eating my lunch near water would help me figure out how to perform the shape of water; perform a prayer with my hands tied behind my back.

I cracked each peanut individually, not trusting those with two, three, small fruits in them. My thumb holding them steady and pushing apart the fibers, opening a door to what the long seasons and long truck rides had produced. And ate them one by one, popping each into my mouth before my tongue swirled around it, removing the salt. Thicker and thicker, until my tongue was moving towards honey.

I stopped eating before the peanuts ran out, not to stop the cycle. To preserve the shape shifting I could envision my body performing. The white space between each performance never consistent with the next. Eventually becoming solid; all of the water in another form. My body frozen and transporting at the same time, depending of where you look. Water continued to be shot from the fountain and continued to rest in the pool. The air entrapped by the launched water, when it eventually fell, was the only reminder that things were moving. The air still in the water, like minerals formed before glass quenches. Subject to a different measure of light--a different aesthetic--crystalizing their formations underwater. 





Saturday, September 21, 2019

"it is in the worlds beyond, and this is what we are trying to reach" -- Harold Klemp


All I can think about is the distance between this truck and myself, the distance between our bodies. And the reverberations, invisible studying my skin, from the truck. Is it desperate to want to feel the space between? Theory feels like a measurement of this distance, or something quantifiable, but I want to do this space, feel it together, pause in it, pace. (This is starting to sound like a shadow manifesto.) Overtime this blog is beginning to say more and more about me, and im guiding it in this direction: Last night we watched a documentary on Earl Strickland and I had the greatest desire to scour queens for him, and play a game of pool--the most vogue new york has sounded since reading an edie sedgewick biography in high school (I wonder if my mother still has it?).

My bag of dirt has been returned to me. 1) reminding me of the unwavering love and tenderness of my friends and 2) restoring a sense of the rhythm to my kitchen, where it sits in the corner. 


My mobile phone is always taking pictures and not telling me. I think the distance between me and this machine is closing. It is antithetical, but I kind of like it ... 

(my desk was messy yesterday morning! I cleaned it to write an essay!) 





Wednesday, September 11, 2019

"life is trying to teach us one thing: to see the Eck, the Holy Spirit, in the eyes of all we meet" -- Harold Klemp

I am back--rematerialized within the natural limits of flesh. Have you ever found a rail yard and thought, fuck all that other noise? Well I have. And I love that benevolent space(less)ness we want to feel. I want to feel the music every day, rythmotelephonepiphony, and I guess I am dying to hear something within my/self, something like the memory of all of my/selves, something like a geography--architectures and performances--of desire; a poetics of transit.

Okay, this is isnt a roast, but lucas has never had blue moon ice cream! I would like him to. I bet he would love it.

I made a cape:~)

Transit.

LOL I got hacked! 

T

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Damn this rocks.

Damn this rocks.

star crossed lovers.

I'm open minded! But this makes me laugh.

This is so cool. My camera phone, damn autonomous thing, took this photo from within my tote bag! Some post-fordist-fruedian-cyborg-type-shit. (see next photo) 

I dont know what im talking about, im insane!

This is so pretty! SOMEONE LIVES HERE!

damn.

<3

(no caption needed)

I made so much food! Alek took this photograph. I am thinking about starting a food blog. Would you read it? I don't care. Ha ha. I do want i want. Live by my own rules. A bat out of hell. What? Rules? No rules (sunglasses). 

a synthesis of everything. Monica de la Torre rocks harder than you. Until next time! See you soon! xoxo! Lots of love! All my best! Always, 

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

“If you have a problem or desire a healing, try this exercise before falling asleep. Catch yourself at that point just before you fall asleep - between waking and sleep. Imagine bathing yourself with the healing orange light. You then can ask the Inner Master to help you regain spiritual balance by saying, "If it's for the good of all concerned and doesn't interfere with my spiritual growth, would you please heal me?" Then holding that thought, drift into sleep.” -- Harold Klemp

Fellow blogging community! Cosmo inhabiteers! Dream sleepers! and Sleep dreamers! I have been bantering with myself like horses purrrrring under the hood of a car: so-called-bong-rips-so-called-psuedo-poetics-so-called-falling-in-love-quickly: "the sublime goal of poetry is to get with your lover" (ab): its been a while since my last post and I have all of my blood. Who even knows what I have been up to, only our imaginations can help the posthumous time and space of my looping fictive reality show anachronism. Lets get this ball rolling. Big bug! woah!

I am going to cincinnati


Big bath<3


:'~>

Raina and sandra and a tal bench! People are so tall in hudson that they make the benches this tall! 

mmmmmmm a good slice of cake from a good spot with cute lighting and tables and good friends 

this is so funny to me, haha

more pieces of my heart

getting ready to go hiking

waterfalling 

(for linkedin)

small bathtub, cute 

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Lucas getting healed 



Lucas healing at the beach

sunning 

Lucas: healed

Lucas and I 

Lucas need a lot of healing 



umph yeah hyped 

okay rock on 


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Pickle juice spill!!!!!!!! 

Heaven, no joke

rocks so hard luv the nature preserve 

tough morning, per usual. Back in the world I suppose. See ya soon. xx