Peanuts and Honey
I took my lunch to the one of the local museums to eat near a fountain surrounded by the sound of water. I did not know if the water had turned the fountain's base green. The base was a pool to collect the shooting streams and keep them from coming in contact with my feet and recycle the water like a manufactured water cycle. Maybe it had been deigned that way. Designed with materials to convince someone that this cycle has continued without intervention for some time, and has occurred longer before.
I thought that eating my lunch near water would help me figure out how to perform the shape of water; perform a prayer with my hands tied behind my back.
I cracked each peanut individually, not trusting those with two, three, small fruits in them. My thumb holding them steady and pushing apart the fibers, opening a door to what the long seasons and long truck rides had produced. And ate them one by one, popping each into my mouth before my tongue swirled around it, removing the salt. Thicker and thicker, until my tongue was moving towards honey.
I stopped eating before the peanuts ran out, not to stop the cycle. To preserve the shape shifting I could envision my body performing. The white space between each performance never consistent with the next. Eventually becoming solid; all of the water in another form. My body frozen and transporting at the same time, depending of where you look. Water continued to be shot from the fountain and continued to rest in the pool. The air entrapped by the launched water, when it eventually fell, was the only reminder that things were moving. The air still in the water, like minerals formed before glass quenches. Subject to a different measure of light--a different aesthetic--crystalizing their formations underwater.
Monday, September 23, 2019
Saturday, September 21, 2019
"it is in the worlds beyond, and this is what we are trying to reach" -- Harold Klemp
All I can think about is the distance between this truck and myself, the distance between our bodies. And the reverberations, invisible studying my skin, from the truck. Is it desperate to want to feel the space between? Theory feels like a measurement of this distance, or something quantifiable, but I want to do this space, feel it together, pause in it, pace. (This is starting to sound like a shadow manifesto.) Overtime this blog is beginning to say more and more about me, and im guiding it in this direction: Last night we watched a documentary on Earl Strickland and I had the greatest desire to scour queens for him, and play a game of pool--the most vogue new york has sounded since reading an edie sedgewick biography in high school (I wonder if my mother still has it?).
My bag of dirt has been returned to me. 1) reminding me of the unwavering love and tenderness of my friends and 2) restoring a sense of the rhythm to my kitchen, where it sits in the corner.


Wednesday, September 11, 2019
"life is trying to teach us one thing: to see the Eck, the Holy Spirit, in the eyes of all we meet" -- Harold Klemp
I am back--rematerialized within the natural limits of flesh. Have you ever found a rail yard and thought, fuck all that other noise? Well I have. And I love that benevolent space(less)ness we want to feel. I want to feel the music every day, rythmotelephonepiphony, and I guess I am dying to hear something within my/self, something like the memory of all of my/selves, something like a geography--architectures and performances--of desire; a poetics of transit.
Okay, this is isnt a roast, but lucas has never had blue moon ice cream! I would like him to. I bet he would love it.
This is so cool. My camera phone, damn autonomous thing, took this photo from within my tote bag! Some post-fordist-fruedian-cyborg-type-shit. (see next photo)
I made so much food! Alek took this photograph. I am thinking about starting a food blog. Would you read it? I don't care. Ha ha. I do want i want. Live by my own rules. A bat out of hell. What? Rules? No rules (sunglasses).



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